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[24 Apr 2004|05:36pm]
new livejournal .. name = tornxfishnet . It's the same thing, just friends only. Comment and ill add youu.
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[24 Apr 2004|04:29pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

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[24 Apr 2004|01:07am]
[ mood | bored ]

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[23 Apr 2004|01:22pm]
[ mood | geeky ]

todayy yo.

01. Got up; found out mommy had the day off.

02. Got angry because mommy had the day off.

03. took a showa & went to school

04. Had gym =0 i playyyed ! (i hate gym) so yeaa i went to kick the ball & Mr. Walters pulled my hood so i couldnt run to kick it & then he laughed because the next time i kicked and my shoe fell off. & then i was doing ballet at first base and everyone was like "yo, ballet's queer" and i was just like nooo.. nuckka !

05. i had cookies & nesquick again for lunch. (jonnyjon moved his seat, Mrs Catera made him. Because ya know him & Erin = now going out again)

06. Amir had temper probs & pushed Pat.

07. pat & Anthony & Mattcheww stole my ryan, who hasnt called today cause yeaaa..

08. I got an 'E' for EXCELLENT on my social proj. Mrs. Wind almost pissed her pants, thats how funny our movie was 'supposedly'.

09. I didnt call Pat, and now wont cause he stole ryan.

10. I failed a math test =0 what the fuck ?

11. andddd .. now im gonna EAT !


and woah, i knoww =((( Yoooo Alex, my pants dont fit either, I think its a sign from god for me to .. DIEETTT ! yeaaa. i think sooo.

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[22 Apr 2004|04:32pm]
yum. just had dinna<3 i dont feel good now, i never feel good after i eat. =0 oh shit yeaa,, i need to fucking talk ryan. Not anything important, i just miss him. I talked to him for like two secs & then i had to goo. Now it`s homework & then phone =\ sooo im gonna try to hurry so i can talk to him <3 because i love him so very much. ehhh, i have to see him Friday or or orrr .. well i donno, but yeaa.


*where the fuck is Bandit, i feel bad,,, sweetumsss was it something "important" you had to talk about?? Im all like "ARG!" because i wanna know what it is =000 succkkkaa, this sucks !


ahh those "pothead icons" are just too cute, too cute. i need a new icon. =\ wellll seee. i`ll be trickin youuuu !
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[22 Apr 2004|12:16pm]
[Things from today ]

01. Todays lunch fucking sucked, i had choc. milk and cookies instead.

02. I did my science proj. in the morning & it came out like crap !

03. I woke up late & almost missed the bus.

04. Sr. Maureen finally gave me back my book.

05. I got into a fight with Mrs. Wind, because shes all like "Im gonna keep you all in during your lunch" and i was all like "noo! your not allowed, its a law for children to have atleast a thirty mintue lunch period. You cant starve us" .. and then everyone was like yelling at her & she blamed me?

06. I failed three social studies tests in a row.

07. Anthony said he loves me <33

08. Sam isn't moving down to 7S anymore cause cause cusss.. ya mom.

09. we had an assembly in the gym from 1:15 to 2:3o?

10. I got to sit next to Pat & almost matt but he got move.

11. Pat took the needle out of the bandage covering his boo boo & started sticking himself with it.

12. Matt tried but did it the wrong way and started bleading (hehe)

13. Me & Matt had a giggle war (he won! go figure)

14. I slaped sacanna <3 funn

15. I tinkled in the girls bathroom!!! .. i try to avoide the bathroom, because its dirty, but yeaaa i went anyways.

16. I tried to roll my tounge, but im not skiled.

17. I tried to fake burp, but im not skilled.

18. I laughed so hard in science that i got the hickups.

19. I got to see hot Brian Oniell, but then Pat called him a fag ! WHAT THE FUCK!! - hes sooper hott.

20. I found a spider under my cup this afternoon

21. I came home & had some soup

22. Tomorrows friday.

23. I accidently said Nigger infront of Charmaine and i felt very sad.

24. I Hate these annoying people who keep on talking about Brande New and how hot taking back sunday is. No offense niggerss but brand news been around since half of you knew how to whip your ass sooo dont be all "Brand News new album, Your Favorite Weapon is totaly hot". Because it aint new faggs.

25. And then dont ask me if I like good Charlote and then because I say "um nahh, I would prefre the postal service" Ya'all are like "dammnn, that bitch knows shit about music" Cause odds are, you faggots are one of those fuse people, that dont know shit but watch videos and then run to school saying "thursdays cool !!" (which yeaa, they kickin<3)

26. And Nirvana isn't a "new band" .. And i find it offensive that you dare to not know that kurt is dead, or even that his name if Kurt, but yet they are your "New Favorite Band" whyyy ? Because their videos are back on Mtv ? niggerrs!!! and then claim you loove everyone in that band, but you "hate" the foo fighter,, umm same person ass muncher ? (Niv. drummer = foo singer) yeaaa hes hot yo.

27. And death cab for cuties aren't queer

28. I hate people who make fun of shit, or other people just cause they dont understand.

29. I hate you people who talk about other people badly, and your in the same fucking situation.

30. I hate all you dummies who lable Ryan as a bad kid, without even knowing him. And myself as a slut without ever talking to me.

31. If im mean to you .. well then, i dont like you.

shit maggies here .. Bad day forr mee =0 laterrr
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[20 Apr 2004|06:08pm]
[ mood | great<3 ]

updatess huhh ..

Monday: was good; i wasnt tired & all the teachers were nice to me. Mrs. Zegars made me cut off my black studded cross necklace (cause it was tied on) and shes like i can get it off for you "cut" i was like ARGGG NIGGERR THATS MY FUCKING FAVORITE NECKLACEE, but i didnt say that =\ hehe i was all like. um? dude that wasnt cool of you. And shes all like, "um dude, i believe im the teacher & you're the student so lets stick with Mrs Zegars. Got it dude" and i was all like "GR !" haa.. thennn i came home; didnt study - talked to ryan instead =0 Bad meee..


Tuesday: I failed the test, that i didnt study for. =) hehe. I got accused for not doing homework (FUCK YEAA!! IM AHEAD 3Lessons in math =))) top that suuucckkkaa) .. well math is just soo easy for me, that i just teach myself this stupid shit<3 i love math. Anddd Sr Mo took my book =0* BITCHH, it has my lunch money in it, sooo no lunch for mee tomrrow =0* Grr. um.. Matt & Pat tore down all the pictures in my locker because their physicos and like getting me mad? I donno why though, but yeaa they get soo much joy out of pulling down my pictures =\ I had chicken nuggets for lunch and Erin & jonny are going out again =)! surprise surprise .. hehe <3 Erin knows// I soooo told her!

Thenn i came home and talked to ryan on the phone instead of studying =(( again imm sooo bad =(( but i love him. We had a long discussion on "itt."It" sucks. Anddd ryann you know im gonna love you forever. The dreams never lie, but sweetums<3(haha fav. word.) im still gonna love you.. till you get bored ;D and ill even love you then. Gr and im calling you tomrrow! and ill leave a message too - cause im cool like that =)


yeaaa time for caitlin to shower.. laterrrr.


Ps* next time ill add weed to my cracker ;) Just for mattccheewww.

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[19 Apr 2004|05:40pm]
todayyy is monday, our first day back from school. God this is so gayy, i wish Ryan was back at holy family.. or they gave a special "ryan caitlin time" where i get to like leave school and see him =0 mannn that'd be cool. ahh! my moms a fucking ass mucher.. i hate her so much, ? Its like i cant be on the phone// the computer// go outside orr do anything other than study and i cant get in her way // who the fuck wants to study? .. and if i have already studied is all the fact, that im "lieing".. amazing aint it? yeaa.

* She started fighting with me cause she says, im not going to Trinity .. which i diagree with. I think she'll give in and let me go. I mean we're not gonna fuckng move.. shes crazy when she says that.

* If i moved to Suffolk/ or Anywhere else i'de miss Ryan<3 i'm sure he'd be fine with it after a few days though. =\ Ehh.. like i told you sweetie, you're just gona get bored anyways. I hope not, =(. Let me tell you, this crazzyy ass boyy (my babehh, ryan<3) thinks that im gonna dump him again? whats up with that.. Grr this past summer (when i wasnt going out with ryan) was horriblee!, i think i already told him that though =\ Andd hehe he thinks what i did with shaun & joe was messed up =\, but can i sayyy i just love ryann too much<33 ..

ehh, well now i gots to go, i wasted all my time talking about ryan that i didnt even tell you what happened today =\. I guess ill do that shit laterr <33 love youu.


ahh! Bandit i gots to tell you the rest of my dream !! .. (dream status = still having them=\)


<3
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[18 Apr 2004|04:43pm]
[ mood | unloved ]

some people are maddddd gay <3 I would try to make it obvious to you; if i knew how ? I would be better at being your friend, your love, your anything.. if you told me how & stopped playing stupid games.


* I wish i were your obession & all this didnt matter, so i could sleep again.



welll kids, tomrrows monday andd this fucking sucks .. im gonna go take a shower do my hair all pretty and get all set for tomrrow =) yeaaa sounds good <3. (NOT ARGGG !!!) i swear .. im not trying to act obessed, but holy fuck, where the fuck is ryan =( i miss him & i need him too much. He has his own little place on my buddy list & hes never on =(( whats up with that. To top, i never see him - ARG! can one of yo Iggys girls tell him ..

* i loove him.
* and i miss him
* and hes a little hottie
* and i love him soo much
* and yeaa .. you can take it from there.

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[18 Apr 2004|11:31am]
[ mood | anxious ]

can someone help me with my web site? .. i'd appreciate it. It's this - click And i would like to have different backgrounds for the different pages =) but nooo it never works ha. Can someone pleaseee call me ? in like dieing in my fucking house. All i did today was go to church and out for breakfast! ARG!! and seriously i miss my sammy =(  .. fightings not cool <3 i love you sammy girrll<33.. Oh woah, guess who gets to clean the car today? Yeaaa thats right mee =\ go figure? .. ahh its not that bad though, i get to put my bathing suit (and shorts) on and i GET TO GET WET !! weeee .. I dont have a pool niggaa !! we have a big backyard, but noo my mommies a cheap one! ahh so yes do call - 7965280 and make plans with me <3 heh .. i'd love it <3

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[17 Apr 2004|08:44pm]

I adopted a cute lil' superman fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!
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[17 Apr 2004|08:08pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

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[17 Apr 2004|07:19pm]
[ mood | hyper ]

=0 alright welll .. you know how i was suppose to go to The static Lullaby concert with Mark?..(andd the the ass muncher momma of mine punished me?) alrightty well Jay sold my cousin more tickets (I swear to fucking god, this kid Jay is amazing!.. ,but hes got to be up to noo good.. If hes sealing all these bootleg tickets.. well i figure their bootleg, unless he gets them online or something?) to see.. Allister w/ Hidden in Plain View, Punchline & Grover Dill. =0 ohh myy .. Its in Farmingdale i think he said ?? .. I soo wanna go, but with my luck it'll get fucked upp? Its the 29th . ..

Hes so stupid though . he said,

MarkyMark03518: yeh Allister w/ all them are playing the same night as something corporated and the early november.
BarAT95: ahh! dude .. The early november kicks Hidden in plainviews ass!! why?
MarkyMark03518: so i picked Allister and them
MarkyMark03518: because you get more
MarkyMark03518: Early nov and somethin corp are two diffrent shown
MarkyMark0318: **shows


ahh! i dont care i still think the early november kicks major hidden in plainview asss*

*buttt yeaa - thats the latest jizz. I better not fucking miss this one <3 i better not! And if i do =( Can you buy me silverers?
'-->(i donno, i checked silverers, they said thats how you spell it ? .. confused)

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[17 Apr 2004|05:51pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

i loove that song by Mario Wanins Read more...Collapse )

*good song right? .. yeaa. i like it. Whats up with the deal of "If you like rock or how they call it now "Emo", or "Punk rock" <- (haha) thenn you cant like any rap?" .. I'm not a rap faninaic, but i can tollerate it. And i know most lyrics =) butttt .. who came up with that stupid saying of "Emo" = anti rap ?

hehe (shh) Ryan thinks im in loove with rap, but not really (i grew up with rock .. from A) my daddy (Def.) B) My mommie (! shes crazy about music) C)My cousins &Granny =) soo yeaa .. its just cute when he gets annoyed =\\ .. yeaa whateverr.. i confessed to my siick pleasure ;) hehe. What can i say? .. Ryan you just turn me onnn. !

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[17 Apr 2004|05:11pm]
[ mood | bored ]

lets see if this works ??

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[17 Apr 2004|04:57pm]
[ mood | blah ]

todayy i went shopping i didnt buy that much but here it is anywyas ...

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hmm this is gonna be a boringg saturday night .. call me if you'd like ?...

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[16 Apr 2004|05:00pm]
[ mood | pain ]

1. make a comment and copy this whole thing in there.
2. star the things that you have in common with me.
3. Whatever you don't star, replace with things about you.


01. I love orange juice
02. I dont like mtv much
03. I couldn't live without my music.
04. I hate the Winter
05. I love funny commercials
06. I hate it when people copy me
07. I love being loved
08. I wish it was summer.
09. I cry a lot.
10. Its NOT all about pink
11. I hate having to wash and dry dishes
12. I appriciate the littlest things.
13. I want to drive soo bad
14. pancakes arent good
15. I love hugs.
16. I like to keep my away message on when im out
17. I hate when my mom shuts off the computer when im out
18. I hate having energy and not being able to do anything.
19. I love the dark.
20. I like to play with fire.
21. I like making out
22. I like meeting new people.
23. Music makes everything -- or most things -- better.
24. I love hot showers
25. I like to look at people's AIM profiles
26. I hate labels.
27. I love the beach.
28. I love to look at the stars.
29. I love weekends
30. I hate pimp my ride
31. I don't care what people think about me most the time.
32. I love shopping
33. I procrastinate. A LOT.
34. I sleep late on weekends most of the time
35. I hate waking up for school
36. I wish I could be alone sometimes.
37. I hate the akward silences in a conversation.
38. I love spending the day in sweat pants and a big t-shirt.
39. I'm open to new music, but I hate it when people sneer at my music taste.
40. I wish my room was bigger
41. I really love being with friends
42. I always lie in bed for at least 15 minutes after I wake up.
43. I am looking foward to graduating
44. I wish I lived by a beach
45. I hate how pictures of me turn out
46. I'm stubborn sometimes
47. I love trying new thigs with my hair
48. I love going to school to see people. thats it.
49. I spend at least 10 minutes to get ready
50. I love going to the movies
51. I'm attracted to nice eyes
52. I love going to parties and just dancing the entire night, not caring about anything.
53. I want to be able to do whatever I want for a day.
54. I dont like being protected by parents so much
55. I hate when people change just because they have someone new in their life.
56. I hate feet.
57. It's easy to make me laugh or smile.
58. I sing in the shower.
59. I love writing
60. I wish I could be in someones mind and them not know.
61. I like writing in pencil.
62. I love makin a scene.
63. I have a journal and love writing in it.
64. I like to stay in my pjs until later afternoon on Sundays.
65. I dont like rap, but I know all the words to a lot of songs.
66. I love poison the well
67. I love Disney.
68. I hate AOL.
69. I neglect other things if I focus on one thing too much.
70. I hate working.
71. I hate babysitting.
72. This is taking too long.
73. I want to dye my hair.
74. I hate blind dates.
75. I wear eyeliner.
76. I love boys with long hair. Theyre just hot.
77. I am really in the mood to go swimming.
78. I hate when boys just, sit there.
79. I wish I had someone...unconditional.
80. I love the way ryan acts like im the only one for him.
81. I want a tattoo.
82. I hate when people change who they are, just to fit in.
83. I hate being a fatty
84. I want to go on a road trip.
86. I want to go to hawaii or something nice like that
87. I hate when people crack their nuckles
88. I feel like dancing.
89. Boys are dumb and mean!(sometimes)
90. I wonder what it would be like without my friends.
91. I hate mondays
92. and i hate sundays
93. I love taking naps.
94. I want to make out in the rain.
95. I'm ticklish.
96. I hate it when someone tries to be funny, but theyre just not.
97. I wish i had a bigger house.
98. I wish I was little again.
99. I wish ryan came back to holy family.
100. I like most reality tv

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[16 Apr 2004|04:44pm]
[ mood | sad ]

Meat is grossee! i almost vomited eating my dinner. I don't know why, I just kept imagining it was alive .. =(

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[16 Apr 2004|03:07pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

answer truthfuly ..


PLAYLIST
thrice
refused
thursday
onelinedrawing
coheed and cambria
desaparecidos
bright eyes

HEARTS
the guestlist.
scene points.
making out.

HATES
people who break my edge.
paying for shows.
fakerrss

DIRTY SECRETS
I own every midtown cd.
I took down my blink182 posters last week.
I broke my tv when mark got static lullaby tickets and i couldnt go (punished?)
I enjoyed the new get up kids album. =\
I hate Brand New, and all their trendy music!

AOL SCREENNAME STATUS
in need of a new one ?

BOYFRIEND STATUS
If he didnt love me, I wouldnt be surprised.

FRIEND STATUS
meanies.. sums it up ?

CLOTHING STATUS
*black sweat shirt
*Dark grey pants, cut off bottoms
*socks
* & messy// curly hair.

YOUR THOUGHTS ON LOVE
*confusion
*mental break downs
& mental torture

LIVE OR DIE
live ;; but grow up FASTER !

MARRIED OR NOT
married - but im picky

BEST FRIENDS OR NOT
i have, but whats the meaning ?

SELF STATUS
um.. straight

GOT AN ENEMIES
none that i hate personally, but im sure theres someone who hates mee..

ANY ONE YOU LOOK UP TO
* Ryan - he amazes me.
* Kurt Combaine - he touched so many in his lyrics
* Just all around happy people.

ANY ONE YOU WOULD RISK YOUR LIFE FOR
*My mom & any member of my family
.. because they would for me.


BOOKMARKS (sites?)
livejournal.com
buddyhead.com
emogame.com

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[16 Apr 2004|02:16pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

" oldest sibling syndrome " ..

you know, if we just faught like normal friends? thenn yea that'd be fine, but noo .. cause everytime we fight its always either mine or jenna fault, never hers? .. like she never does anything?


JeRsEyGrL926: Caitlin why are you starting ?
JeRsEyGrL926: why are you so mad.

.. i felt like i was the mental pacient and she was trying to act like my fucking doctor or something, and then i was going to write a bad update about her anddd ..

JeRsEyGrL926: whatever,, don't be mad for to long because unlike you;; i do need you and I don't want you to be mad at me. You help me through alot. Bye i love you.

? i dont get it, she starts and ends he own fights?? .. is drama queen the right word? .. i dont know, i got mad at ryan for calling her that, but that alone is what she is?? .. arg


* BANDIT !! ahh i want to see you, but as you prolly have read, two if my friends ditched my other friend & then my other friend ditched everyone, but the two who ditched my other friend made their own plans with out me (how nice of them) andd everyone else has other plans already set, sooo once again, im getting fucked over in the plan making process =0 go fucking figue ?

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